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“Have you ever found the one
You’ve dreamed of all of your life…
You’d do just about anything to look into their eyes

Have you finally found the one you’ve given your heart to
Only to find that one won’t give their heart to you…

Have you ever closed your eyes and dreamed that they were there…
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can’t sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don’t come out right
Have you ever, have you ever?… “

Almost Doesn’t Count…

“I can’t keep on lovin’ you
One foot outside the door
I hear a funny hesitation
Of a heart that’s never really sure…

Gonna find me somebody
Not afraid to let go
Want a “no-doubt-be-there” kind of man
You came real close
But every time you built me up
You only let me down…
And everybody knows
Almost doesn’t count…

You almost had me thinkin’
You were turned around
But everybody knows
Almost doesn’t count…

Almost convinced me
You’re gonna stick around
But everybody knows
Almost doesn’t count…

Almost heard you saying
You were finally free
What was always missing for you, baby
You’d found it in me…

But you can’t get to heaven
Half off the ground
Everybody knows
Almost doesn’t count…”

“Sometimes I sit at home and wonder how it’d be if he had loved me… truly loved me, yes…
I learned a while ago that kind of thing, it never happens for me

And so I go around and just pretend love is not for me
I play the circus clown around my friends make them laugh and they wont see that you never let them see u sweat
Don’t want them to think the pain runs deep, Lord knows its killing me…

So i put on my make up, put a smile on my face and if anyone asks me everything is okay…
I’m laughing ‘coz no one knows that the joke is on me ‘coz I’m dyin’ inside with my pride and a smile on my face…

Sometimes I sit at home by the phone hopin’ he might call me but he don’t call me…
But then I realize “dreams come true” aren’t for girls like me… not like me…

And so  I go around with my head up like it ain’t no thing
And when the boys around with all my friends, I’m into other things ‘coz
you never let them see u sweat
Don’t want them to think the pain runs deep, Lord knows its killing
me…

Its not easy thing to do, sometimes its hard to face the truth
Its not the life that I would choose but what else can I do if he don’t love me?…no, if he don’t want me…
I’m not about to sit around let myself go…

And so I put on my make up put a smile on my face and if anyone ask me everything is okay…
I’m laughing ‘coz no one knows that the joke is on me, ‘coz I’m dyin’ inside with my pride and a smile on my face… singing….”

“…Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had…
What happened to us? We were almost there…
Whoever said it’s impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you…”

“I’m through living in question,dreaming the answers….
No more paving the present with pain from my past.
And I will let you go…and I will let you go…”